As I was driving the nap drive today, I went to call my mom and there was no signal. Sometimes there is and sometimes there isn't way in the middle of the desert of Stanfield. But, with the analogy that followed, I knew there was no signal today for a reason.
My life feels like a picture puzzle. All in pieces and all scattered about. I once knew what the picture looked like when it was whole and in one piece. But now I'm not so sure. The only thing that I am sure of is that Dakota and I are on the same piece someplace. We will always be on the same piece of the puzzle.
I want to put it together so fast so I know what the picture actually looks like. What the end result will be. Who will be in the picture? Where will it be located? What will the surroundings look like? How will I feel and look? I came to the realization somewhere after passing the third dairy farm that God is the only one who can put the pieces together. He's the only one who can reshape them and make them fit together again.
This was the perfect image for me, because a broken puzzle is EXACTLY how I feel right now. I have a card on my magnet board that says something like "Trade Your Pieces for Gods Peace". I'm not sure how the pieces are going to come together again. Some days it feels like they actually get scattered further apart instead of closer together.
Hey.....isn't it easier when you start with a corner piece? Something with a strong foundation to build on? If I keep trying to fit all the pieces to that one Main Piece, maybe it will come together. In His time. And the picture will be His too.
p.s. Had to share a cute pic I got of Dakota eating an apple today. She's always eating but as skinny as a stick. I'm not sure whose child she is!